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Voyager
04:43
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Voyager
i – Heliosphere
Ear pressed to cardboard and aramid;
fine dialling the warm bakelite, hoping
to hear your chattering on foam lined
headphones and shortwave eights.
Competing with the numbers stations,
their cool cold war intonations at odds
with the promise of your static blasts.
Thrown from the world with a box
of memories, arms flailing against the
sunglare, silent screaming past a parade
of ghost-dancing gods but taking time
for an itinerant do-si-do, you persevere.
ii – Kuiper Belt
Once filled with other worlds, this room,
now barren, unkind, dressed only
in a thin pane of sun-glass, that splits
the air between me and the world.
A crumpled sleeping bag, waiting
to be zipped and rolled; bundled
into the back of a battered Fiat. But
luck’s not on my side and the long
meadow recedes, the cobalt skies
above reduced to a pale blue dot
in the rear-view mirror. We fall
into quagmire night but persevere.
iii – Oort Cloud
Head to the power window, in petulant
silence, scouring the pointilliste zoo,
I see two bears that light the way but no
trace of you among the dervish conclave.
Hidden by distance and motorway light,
charging into unknown territory, I scoop
the condensation from the glass and touch
the space between the dragon and the woman
in chains. A small encouragement. Our heads
in the clouds, moved by forces beyond
us, to unseen destinations – I never knew
if we were falling or flying, but we persevered
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Lullaby
02:39
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Lullaby
The frenetic signal lost from Luxemburg
at 0045 hours nightly, gave me time
to retune the transistor radio to the long
wave, ghost whining of empty air.
White mono earphone crackling
as a warm and soothing treacle prayer
filled me with a languid, liquid lullaby
"Plymouth, Biscay, Finisterre…"
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The Attic Room
03:12
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The Attic Room
An autumn storm scowls from the weald
forcing feart adrenal insomnia. It’s crazed
winds calling, cooing like surprised old
women, handbags drawn to the chin,
mocking through the High Brooms flue.
The brickwork barely hides the frantic
flutters of doomed birds, that free soot
and smuts to flock the half-blocked grate.
A temporary lull and I peer from beneath
the sheets, squealing again as Poe shadows
steal into windows, birthed by the devious
ambuscade of unquiet skies.
I count to two, then five, then nine. On reaching
double figures, my bravery returns and I watch
the world right itself, window in the flickering
sodium wash. from the sash window, its cracked
glass freezing the lightning; a silicate snapshot.
Paint peels from the frame, echoing the trembling
suburban trees, shedding leaves to show their limbs
in a unco floral striptease. These nocturnal hills,
cobbled, and cosseted by raw and shriven air,
amplify with pellucid fidelity, the slow clicker
-clack of the blue circle goods train. Diesel-
puttering, distant headlamps scowling in strobe
time, it crosses the rust-fretted bridge, hard-bitten
and uncaring; undoing the work of the now distant rains.
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. Ullapool – Remembrance Sunday 2019 – A Hai Bun
i
The sun absent;
the moon a papercut.
Hibernal lowery.
An unexpected crunching woke me. Footsteps on gravel. A faint gruffling noise as something brushed against the chalet door; a light clack-and-scrape against the mullions. Contented grunts sounding as it reached to steal a mossy treat from beneath the step.
Across an asphalt scar,
indifferent to our presence,
prickets came to dine.
On leaving, we marvelled at the stillness of the lake. It had frozen so quickly that a wavelet could still be seen, threatening to break, but caught; apprehended by weather. The air so cold, so tight a well-placed pin could prick it, bursting the atmosphere into shards of brittle oxygen.
Dew frozen to its surface,
A small private jetty reflects
nervously in quivering water.
The road to Ullapool winds through The Lonely Lands. Singletrack roads flanked by quartzite whorls; muricate gorse and pervious moss. A polecat slinks, flashing its ermine underbelly as it runs from a large unidentified hawk, silhouetted against whetted blue skies, the only signs of life.
ii
We arrived to silence and ate breakfast at a waterside café. We watched the loch breathing through the condensation that shimmering on silicate walls. The streets trickle-filled with well-dressed and solemn people, all drawn towards the harbour, once a hub of the national fishing industry.
Klondykes - long gone –
have returned the harbour
to hushed sound.
We watched as the crowd grew, blocking the roads and the harbour front. To the west, the focus. A cenotaph. A solemn finger, pointing to the heavens. Ullapool exhaled, and a Pipe Band punctuated the breathless silence. The harshness of the pipes filtered by numbed air; softened by frozen breath. The mountains by the loch providing sublime reverberation.
The dulcet brume-filtered
drone whispers its lament
over black, rigored waters.
As the service concluded, I glanced toward the Brigadoon hills. Mist slow-raced to the loch – urgent but languid - before being absorbed into its waters. The reconnection of mist and loch, a reunion of mother and child. A metaphor, perhaps?
In the mists of life…
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5. |
An Autopsy
04:36
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An Autopsy
i
Among mills, warehouses, tenements;
stone blackened; cars burned; metal rusted;
Each transformed by the neglect brought by
progress. Brittle breath clouds brittle glass,
as snow creaks underfoot. Reaching up
to break and enter an abandoned
Police Station. Apt audacity
from the sanctioned and disenfranchised.
There is shelter in this metaphor.
ii
Corridors of peeling paint. The stench
of rats and other vermin filling
lungs with a poisoned air of defeat.
Crawling through the wreckage of human
lives discarded; hypos; take outs; signs
that other victims of the decay,
abandoned this derelict building
in search of new life, or a final
willing journey to the underworld.
iii
Exhausted, guts ripped, heart torn, searching
for small comfort among the squalor;
a respite from perdition’s sting;
he locates a clean room, cold and tiled,
a joyless aluminium table.
the faint odour of formaldehyde;
He rolls his coat to make a pillow
and sleeps on a mortuary slab.
The irony does not escape him.
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Not Gold (Redux)
02:35
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Not Gold (Redux)
A rucksack, mugger torn, spills a life
to the floor. Gathering the remnants;
wallet, money, destination gone;
no choice but a park bench; enamelled
metal and stale beer sticky; gooseflesh,
nipple hard, through skinny, ripped denim.
In Finsbury Park, he gains comfort
from constellations, bright as the light
in his naive eyes. Orion sighs,
and pursues the Pleiades across
the Seven Sisters Road, losing them
below the Westway. A doomed romance
fading as a rose horizon smiles
wide as oceans, breaking his doleful
circumstance and lighting the way home.
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Sub Iove (Pretty Lights)
05:29
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Sub Iove (pretty lights)
i - 2
The first phrase I spoke was in awe of the storm. As the sky tore ablaze,
my eyes widened and I pointed to the clouds. With tiny voice, I described
the scene unfolding, as fully as my vocabulary would allow. ‘pretty lights,’ I said,
‘pretty lights,’ came the echo with a smile attached, and we watched until I slept.
ii - 7
The aspen in the garden trembled in charged air,
scared perhaps of the oncoming storm. Recognising
the signs, I took my position on the windowsill
and waited for the rumbling and dagger show.
Fat thunder surged but refused to give up its light;
tension mounted and the sky, accumulating, finally
found its release shattering the pebbled crusted
concrete post mere feet from my vantage. Consumed
by bluewhite brilliance that dissipated along the now
angry glowing wires; humming. whining with primal hate.
The aggregate released flew and broke the window
in a spray of ragged bullet holes. I ran to the safety
of the dalek free space behind the sofa, feeling bitter
and betrayed by my pretty, pretty lights.
iii – post
When the rain passed and the air was not so
brittle, I touched the still warm stump. The fence
wires, melted and misshapen - slag scabs now frozen
mid-drip - made me wonder what we had done
to deserve this show of elemental wrath, but I looked
at the clouds, now cracked open with cobalt hue,
and apologised to the sky.
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On Visiting Alderley Edge in the Hope of Finding a Wizhard
I wanted to follow in their footsteps -
inhaling the clean filth of leaf mould.
Terror and adrenalin giving scent
to the enemy; to be “relentlessly
pursued by outlandish creatures.”
Then, when all hope was lost, to hear
the gates roar as they opened
to a world of pale blue flame and milk
white mares but I’m lost
on the Wizards Path – tricked
by svart alfar- and trying to reconcile
the convergent memories
of book and prior pilgrimage.
I remember my last communion
at the well as sodden and solemn
in a hollow - the focus of a grove.
Opaque sun percolating through
fat drizzle – protected by the trees
– a wall of stone behind, funnelling
us into adventure. But the claustrophobic
bole of my misremembered landscape,
is an open outcrop, exposed to the skies,
battered by wind. Its naked wildness
emasculated by plastic safety fencing;
an unwelcome barrier between self
and prospect. The ghost of a wizard,
my Wizard, once bold, clean cuts in the rock,
have eroded; neglected. His stilted welcome –
“Drink of this and take thy fill,
for the water falls by the Wizhard's will”
- all but gone; sandstone grit, weather-ground
from the face and words of a childhood
lost, chases along runnels and dissolve into legend.
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Stillborn
03:28
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Stillborn
There isn’t a band to welcome
the holiday makers that never
arrived, by the railway line,
now closed for lack of use.
Nor promenades one could walk
out with a beau against an apron
of sticky rock and bunting.
An absence of augured guest-house
ma’ams – suspicious of the sharp
influx of nervous ‘Mr and Mrs
Smiths’ – that cannot scowl at
a secret seaside tryst while serving
a Full English through gritted
dentures and tart-rouged cheeks.
Unaware of the might-have-beens,
the intrigues or joy, hardy ungulates
wear their hooves down on shy
kerbstones, that hide and cringe
beneath wind-cowed, lank
and shivering grass, remembering
their erstwhile future in the remains
of a still-born town.
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Kings (8)
02:05
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Kings (8)
With fingers stained and sticky from the juice
of scrumped blackberries, I peel enamel scales
from the top of the weathered climbing frame.
From its ramparts, my pink and mauve fist punched
at the sky in triumph, for today and for the first time
I was King and screeched my victory to the rascals
below. Head back and roaring, sight speckled
by low-bright sun, flaming red, I saw a fairy story
gliding above the hullabaloo; behind roiling cumulo-
nimbus; double daring a storm and beating crimson
wings. This chimera soon fragmented, into an autumn
murmuration, feathers orbiting, breeze-bound silk
ribbons, bending like staves around a jazz chord
before hiding in a diminished orchestra of trees.
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Pretentious
01:12
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Pretentious
‘I don’t think you are
pretentious’ he said
‘but you are too influenced
by people who are.’
I mull this over, marvelling
over the Occam simplicity
of my favourite poets
and think, ‘no, no.
It’s definitely me.’
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The Tiny Infinity
07:40
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The Tiny Infinity
I've an app
that shows me
the position
of the stars.
I hold infinity
in one hand.
Meanwhile
outside
the stars
still shine.
Infinity in
the flesh.
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